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Date: Tuesday, January 13, 2009 | Time: 4:29 AM
Adrenaline rush, you can google it.
It was weird, like I saw myself from a different perspective.
I saw what a fool I made myself when I watched him from a distance as he goofed around with his friends. I was idiotic to think he'd actually look my way and think twice about pretending i wasn't there. Then there he was, in front of me with this huge sign, that, if decoded spelled out 'stay out of my life'. Doesn't that suck? To know that one of the only people you feel for couldn't give a damn about you? Doesn't it feel worse that the more you try to forget them, the more you end up wishing that you'd never forget them? Because the disappearance of that thought, that presence of the person right there makes you wanna shrivle up and die.
It was weird, like I saw myself from a different perspective.
I saw what a fool I made myself when I watched him from a distance as he goofed around with his friends. I was idiotic to think he'd actually look my way and think twice about pretending i wasn't there. Then there he was, in front of me with this huge sign, that, if decoded spelled out 'stay out of my life'. Doesn't that suck? To know that one of the only people you feel for couldn't give a damn about you? Doesn't it feel worse that the more you try to forget them, the more you end up wishing that you'd never forget them? Because the disappearance of that thought, that presence of the person right there makes you wanna shrivle up and die.
